Age replaces exuberance with wisdom, confusion with clarity. It's worth to look back at what we now realize is a transition between childhood's idyll and adult awareness. During that rough-and-tumble interlude nothing meant what it had meant when we were kids, and though we can't articulate it, we intuited that things were only going to keep changing. For those few years, every touch was imbued with extra feeling, every action was a pebble dropped into an ocean sending out ever-widening circles of effect. We were afraid of everything and yet willing to try anything at once. Nothing satisfied us, and nothing bored us either, except denial. When we look back on it, we can safely say that love--that life--offered us too many choices, and it's only now, with the wisdom of age, that we realized none of them were wrong.


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Harleigh Maureen // lesbian with a bisexual attraction // highly-introverted // bipolar manic-depressive freak // self-loathing narcissist // queen of self-indulgence // God-loving-hating believer // visionary writer of sorts // a gluttonous whore of a Taurus // an aspiring novelist // capricious college undergraduate // abhors mathematics and stressful, aimless sport activities // rejects romantic entanglements // desires a sense of personal security and privacy // fears rape and being buried alive // masochistic for cigarette burning, needle pricking and frostbites // fond of colors black // orange // red // brown // violet // despises the color pink // favorite numbers are 11 // 5 // 27 // 32 // fond of honeybees and dragonflies // heavily influenced by Victor Hugo // Harlan Coben // Sir Arthur Conan Doyle // Alexandre Dumas // Oscar Wilde // Chuck Palahnuik // William Faulkner // William Blake // Alan Lightman // Dean Koontz // Stephen King // Irvine Welsh // Ayn Rand // Eminem // Green Day // Linkin Park // Kelly Clarkson // MyProof // The Fray // Liz Phair

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WARNING LABEL: I could only tolerate a specific amount of bigotry since I do implement a dark humor and world-weary perspective on controversial issues and would not mind if you oppose my beliefs. Most of the time I don't care about shit but that can be arranged. The only nerve you can strike is if you have a discrimination for mentally-challenged/special children since I have a younger brother with autism. Also, I am a certified Catholic who thinks faith and religion are not always the same thing. I kept all my entries about God private-locked. I don't want to sound conceited because sometimes I bash Him in those entries.


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Writing is fuel // Writing is breathing // It comes within // The power of imagination // creating an altered reality // It's the highest form of daydream and reckless abandon // It's vision-oriented // An artistic attachment // It gives meaning, beauty and direction // It satisfies hope // It's the cure for boredom // It is no fleeting injustice of pleasure // It does not discriminate // It maintains balance and identity // It's an embodiment of sheer elegance // It's the education of the spiritually-starved // It's the home of the literate and wise // It's the foundation of great civilizations // It's the abundance of all creations // It's redemption // It's the indefinite but resiliant answer // It's the ultimate purpose // the grand epitome // oasis // self-conception // celebrates detriments // sprouts from curiosity for the different // the best taste // indulgent love // a spectrum // a color that washes all colors


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Cooper Writer Crafter is Harley Cooper, who writes fanfiction under a pseudonym because it gives her a comfortable status that is separate from her real-life idiosyncrasy which she occasionally cakes up with self-loathing narcissism. Over the last three years in this site, she has become more withdrawn and personal about her writing that she summoned the energy to proofread her published stories this year until she can go back to writing new chapters again.

Currently in the process of improving her smut stories and novellas (A Different Kind of Sweet, Dirty Little Whore, A Little More would do, We’re all MAD here, Our Choice of Wardrobe, I’m a PERVERT?, Angelica) and will move on to her major works (Vengeance Paid, Her god is my enemy, World of Sights and Sounds) in Death Note fandom. She will then proceed to her La Corda d’ Oro fandom (Detriments in a measure, Sophomore, Code of Yunoki) and sweep some errors in her Vampire Knight fiction There isn’t a moment when and finally tweak some fragments here and there in her Prince of Tennis fiction Ornament of no intact personality. Her collection of one-shots offered in DN fandom (Humble, Seek and Rescue, Preoccupied, Red Stilettos) and the Black Butler one-shot An angle it took will be reviewed again if necessary. She has recently published an experimental Yu Yu Hakusho fiction entitled Dirt in the snow which would hopefully garner some attention in its fandom viewers soon.

Furthermore, she has deleted A mild case of entropy, her failed Ouran High School Host Club work of fiction.

Her most famous work Appetite for Enigma will be cancelled temporarily due to distasteful realization while she was re-examining the story’s plot, characters and chapters with a more professional inquiry. Cooper feels that this story offers her nothing but dissatisfaction because somewhere along its development it started to fall short. But there is a guarantee that this piece of literature can be salvaged and she is working on a draft to revise it and will be asking the avid readers about their opinion on the matter. However the public reacts, the fate of Appetite for Enigma rests solely on the author’s decision and she had chosen to rewrite it. She will present the final draft on August and would see from there how her old readers (and possibly new ones) would respond to it.

Resigned from updating new chapters for a while now, Cooper will be returning to her fanfiction duties hopefully in the following months from July to December 2009. Confidently treading on her steps, lurking in the shadows, creating and evolving into a better artist, she also acknowledges and thanks the fellow writers, readers and online friends who helped built the existing writer she is now. It took almost forever to get her into a new skin that doesn’t make her feel too insecure and with a song and prayer in her heart, she will see to it that her craft flourishes because writing is, after all, the one and only reason.